last updated: 2026-08-07
fellas i regret to inform you: december is going to be a slow month. don't worry! i've been streaming a lot recently. that's been nice! in fact that's been a really good experience. spooktober made me want to stream more, even if not daily. because daily was frankly too much. but it did make me upload and stream more often. sadly that's going to slow down. WHY? because i have to edit the best of video! best of 2025! can you believe the year is almost over?... oh my... how time flies.
spooktober! that's right! i want to dedicate this month to spooktober! a month where i'll be streaming daily, and we'll do a lot more "horror" themed related videos! i think it's a cute idea. halloween is one of my favorite holidays. and i don't really stream too often.
i've been uploading a lot of shorts recently, if you noticed at all. i really liked the animation format. some comments have mentioned that the aesthetic reminds them of paper mario, which i think is cute. i made a video on occlupanids, which got a bit of attention. now, a few days later, as well as a few shorts later, i'm noticing it to be more of a one off which is a bit sad. i liked the format and hoped to get more eyes on it. but that didn't turn out to be the case.
i began uploading a few shorts, as well as messing around with long-form videos, by sprinkling some animation in between my videos. for this i began making doodles in krita, which i would then import to blender, and model a rough scene. there were a few issues... rendering takes an absurdly long time. so i hope to find a solution on this over the next few weeks. because rendering even 5 minutes of footage can take up to 10 hours. and that's a horrible use of my time.
we really pushed the cookie run kingdom, and unsuspectingly my singing monsters. there were a lot of people who showed up and seemingly liked these videos. so i think i'm going to do a few more of them over the course of this month.
i got around to playing two very fascinating games. fear & hunger and cookie run kingdom. two games that i think are somewhat closer than you'd think and way more different than you'd expect. cookie run kingdom specifically, i think, changed the course of the channel. as i tended to upload a handful more videos on it.
i cannot explain to you the cause, but the result was a 12 hour binge of me redrawing all of my thumbnails for zyanwashere. i think it looks pretty! i love when other channels draw their thumbnails! i'm talking about cox n crendor i'm talking grian - there's just something COZY, manmade, about drawn thumbnails. it also gives me "more control" over my thumbnails. though my bigger problem is: my innability to come up with catchy thumbnails. but that's a problem for future me.
originally i planned to create the website entirely in C. and i really liked that idea! the issue? it's... complicated. see: i actually designed a prototype of this website first, in python! and i like python. shoutout to python. big ol' round of applause. now: python has a huge (sometimes unreliable) library, which allows you to "bodge" all sorts of ideas together! but when i started this project? my idea was to "remake" those libraries myself. and so... i've shot myself in the foot. oopsies.
good news! the website has been made. bad news! the website is under construction for the unseeable future. it's held together by hopes and dreams and duct tape and bad code. partly that's my fault. okay that's mostly my fault. i wanted to make a website from scratch, using good ol' HTML + CSS, compiled using C... and these are the consequences.